Update-more to come.
Well we tried to get little Gabriel to come on Saturday and made some progress but not enough to actually get labor to start in earnest. I was really hoping for him to come then because Jed has to go back to school on Monday the 20Th and I wanted to be able to spend some quiet time getting to know our baby before the rush of the school year hits us.
I am struggling to surrender fully to the process and allow the Lord and nature to just do as they will.
I know later on I will think I'm nuts for saying this but I am looking forward to labor now. I was afraid that I couldn't do it and it would be too hard. I know that it will be hard but I know I can do it also. On Saturday when we went in for the induction I started a contraction pattern of every 4 minutes with 45 second contractions. Although it was a getting to be painful I was somehow enjoying the rhythm of it like waves at the beach. I think the short dress rehearsal reminder about what labor is like has helped to relieve my fears and get me ready for the big show. I look forward to the process and the end result of getting to see my sweet baby. We are awaiting the joy and can't wait to welcome him into our family.